Sorry to take so long. It's just...this was a pretty serious thing I'm stepping into. I want to make sure I'm not going to be letting anyone down before I run out there, and right into His arms. Or tentacles. Whatever. I talked to my dad about it, and I guess he had one of the best ways of putting it. He still doesn't get just how serious this is, but he gets that things are bad. And he said that if I sit here and let things get worse, without doing anything to help, then that puts me on the same level as Him. I guess, in a way, that's the part that does terrify me so much. It's not just the way he can be anywhere, or even how old he is. For me, it's how easily He can make us like him.
It might be because the ones going after him are already unstable. I don't quite know, but it's possible. All I know is that seeing this thing...being around Him too long...it makes us all bad people, too. It makes us do things we never would've thought of. We may be fighting him, but when it's all over...what's going to happen to the ones who went too far? Will we have to kill them, too? I'm not...God, this is hard.
But I guess the most convincing thing came from my teacher, yesterday. She was talking about how to live a creative life; I've always thought of myself as a creative guy. That was why this list hit me pretty hard.
Be surprised at least once a day
Surprise someone at least once a day
Wake up with clear goals
Take control of your schedule
I don't think I'm going to find any better opportunity for surprise than chasing Him. And clear goals? I think 'Killing Slenderman' is a pretty clear goal to me. Then of course, there's taking control. That's why I went to those woods yesterday.
No, I didn't go unarmed. No, I didn't take a camera. I had my dog with me, and that hunting knife I mentioned hasn't left my pants since Fisk came knocking on my door. Other than that, I'd managed to obtain a tazer from my aunt, who is also pretty shaken up by this. I don't think Fisk is desperate enough to start trying to make cops disappear, though. Even the FBI can't get rid of someone that completely. I'd hope, at least.
I'll get to the forest later. Right now I need to wake up and make sense of what the fuck happened before I tell anyone else.